Thursday, March 31, 2011

Chubby Cushion of Comfort

**Author's note: The formatting on Blogger is wonky and isn't retaining my paragraph breaks, so I apologize for the really 'wordy' looking post!** I read a blog post yesterday that completely describes my current state of mind! "Sometimes You Just Need Baggy Pants" I've reached the point where I am slowly running out of (what I will call the) Chubby Cushion of Comfort. I can feel my hip bones, my collar bone is noticeable, and I can even see my ankles and the veins in my feet on a regular basis. This is WAY beyond my 'comfort zone'. It's almost a little weird and unnerving. Like, where am I melting away to? Where did it all GO? I'm not taking the weight loss for granted, don't get me wrong. It's AWESOME. I feel AWESOME. But I barely have that Cushion to hang on to. It's the Cushion that let me slide through life just being *average*. It's the Cushion that gave me the excuse that I was too overweight to exercise, because...what difference would it make, right? Well, now that the Cushion is fading away, I don't have an excuse to have excuses any longer. I don't have an excuse to NOT buy the cute shirt. I don't have an excuse to NOT sign up to run a 5k. I don't have an excuse to NOT smile when my husband compliments me. Do you or did you have a Chubby Cushion of Comfort? If you still do, have you thought about ways to chip away at it? If you did have one, what steps did you take to push it out of your life? On a side note, I'm down 85 pounds! Just this week, I was able to fit into three pairs of pants that I'd been hanging on to for over 6 years. Baby steps!


Amy said...

Congrats on the 85 lbs down! And you're so right. It's a different feeling when you no longer have that cushion.

For me, in this round of trying to lose weight that I had lost a couple of years ago but then re-gained, it's been about learning that losing weight takes away allll those excuses I had about, "if I wasn't fat, this wouldn't happen, blah blah blah" and facing those things head-on and not blaming my weight for them anymore.

And I think that will help me so much in the long run because my mind is finally in the right place. And it sounds like yours is too.

Keep up the awesome work!

Sharon said...

Well sinced I still have many layers of comfort on my body I don't have an answer to your question, but you're so right about using it as an excuse! You are looking soooooo good and your confidence level just bubbles out of you like a soda bottle that's been shaken up. Good job!!!

Becky Baker Horn said...

Emily, I think with 85 pounds gone, you are way past baby steps and striding tall!

I agree that many of us use fat (or finances, or work, or our pasts, or our parents or spouses, etc., etc., ad nauseum) as excuses not to be all that God created us to be.

All any of us can do is to take one day at a time (and usually one minute at a time), pray over our choice at that minute, and fight to be our best with God's help -- rather than quitting with an excuse.

Slowly, as we pray and rely on God, we will overcome one time -- which builds our faith -- which makes it easier to overcome the next time, and the next, and the next. And when we fall, God is there to pick us up and help us take that next step forward. It isn't comfortable, but in the long run you will have COMFORT and PEACE in your soul in your relationship with God -- and that is way better than being comfortable!

Keep up the good fight and be a conqueror in Christ Jesus!

Love you and Matt!
Aunt Becky